Monday, August 8, 2011

Reflection

"If you think that feeling bad or worrying long enough 
will change a fact, then you are resting on another planet 
with a different reality system." 
~Dr. Wayne W. Dyer
I read these words yesterday and they jumped inside my soul, wrestling around inside
my heart, their meaning hitting me like a ton of bricks.  I haven't been able to get this
quote out of the rotation since.
I am a worrier by nature, a problem solver.  Nurturing others is necessary for my
existence, it is how I express my love.  But I definitely take it too far at times, allowing
the lines of helping and giving become blurred with attachment and enabling.
Obsessively worrying about issues I have no control over, being preoccupied with
details far beyond my realm.  I know this about myself, yet I do it anyway.
This quote has me reflecting on the entanglement I allow inside my heart and how I
confuse that with concern and assistance.  There is a line to be drawn, a certain sense
of detachment that must occur in some of my relationships.  But I was raised to think of
that line as selfishness rather than self preservation.   And I know it is time for a change,
for growth, for breaking the chains and introducing healthier habits.  I know that it is time
to replace worry with trust, allowing myself the ability to enjoy life and the love around
me rather than stressing over the details.  
From the same book:
"We release our burdens and cares, and give ourselves the freedom to enjoy life in spite
of our unresolved problems.  We trust that all is well in spite of the conflicts.  We trust
that Someone greater than ourselves knows, has ordained, and cares about what
is happening.  We understand that this Someone can do much more to solve the problem
than we can.  So we try to stay out of His way and let Him do it."
{Melodie Beattie}
And so here I sit, beginning my week with the realization that I must let go, in a healthy
and loving way, to some of my worrying.  Letting go of stress and anxiety and really,
truly lifting it up to the One who heals all.  Living my life knowing that I am doing all
that I can, loving and giving and caring, but not in a way so as to control or obsess.
And through these actions, I will actually be loving MORE, because my heart will be
free.  Living in the moment, through patience and faith, and knowing when to ask for
help, when the burden has become too heavy.



3 comments:

Nae said...

Wow!!! Those are amazing quotes! Thank you for sharing something like this that so many need to see!

Caitlin said...

What a great inspiration. I've been worrying about things outside of my control like crazy lately. I need all the help I can get!

A great quote I heard the other day was "Worrying gives small problems big shadows."

Lindsay said...

Truer words have never been said. Unfortunately, sometimes letting go of the worries can be easier said than done. Your inner reflection, positive attitude, and willingness to create change is inspiring!